Complexities of a prince\’s life…

I was just telling a good friend that it has been eons since I last fell in love. Freshie days in good ‘ol UP Diliman. And then I remembered this:

“In God’s time, you will fall in love for the right reason with the right person. When that time comes, love will be worth the wait, the tears, and the pain.”

Those two sentences are written in a yellow post-it, folded in half, placed in one of the pockets-the most accessible one- of my blue and gray (or “grey” same stuff) JanSport bag, as if to remind me that it’s all worth it. Every.. little… bit..

A moment’s gaze, a standstill,

the beacon of our first kiss

amidst the sea of craving souls

and unfathomable time.

My friends tried to warn me,

your friend too.

But I hoped, and thought, and believed,

until I can no longer do.

To dazzle was your ammunition,

your charm divine.

My aspirations shattered,

my soul finally found.

I started losing myself,

to care I couldn’t simply muster.

For I was willing to risk it all,

but you didn’t waver.

I wanted to understand you,

and I asked you why.

Still the same answers,

and I wasn’t surprised.

I knew it was over,

the moment I realized

I was having these emotions.

It’s time to say goodbye.

Cruelty comes in various forms,

from nice gestures even.

But still, I’ve got to thank you,

for all the things you’ve done.

A taste of what could have been,

the scent of affection from a distance.

I finally realized I’m capable of,

the four letter word we call, love.

A moment’s gaze, a standstill,

the beacon of our first kiss

amidst the sea of craving souls

and unfathomable time.

My friends tried to warn me,

your friend too.

But I hoped, and thought, and believed,

until I can no longer do.

To dazzle was your ammunition,

your charm divine.

My aspirations shattered,

my soul finally found.

I started losing myself,

to care I couldn’t simply muster.

For I was willing to risk it all,

but you didn’t waver.

I wanted to understand you,

and I asked you why.

Still the same answers,

and I wasn’t surprised.

I knew it was over,

the moment I realized

I was having these emotions.

It’s time to say goodbye.

Cruelty comes in various forms,

from nice gestures even.

But still, I’ve got to thank you,

for all the things you’ve done.

A taste of what could have been,

the scent of affection from a distance.

I finally realized I’m capable of,

the four letter word we call, love.

Ok.. I know it’s bla bla, but what the heck! I needed a title. Haha!

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The Lake Isabella camping trip (see previous post) was really something. Let’s just say that it wasn’t really that bad, but certain unwarranted circumstances have resulted due to some unresolved (for some) resolved issues. But the good thing about the whole experience is that I came to a realization: no more clubbing and drinking for Rob for a year. Yeah, you got that right.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think that it’s bad to go out clubbing and drinking with my buddies, but I decided that I needed a change. Actually, I know I’m doing this because I don’t want to be in a situation where I may be tempted to do something I’d rather not divulge any further. My friend told me that maybe I don’t trust myself. For some reason, I think I know better (note: I think). However, if I remove clubbing and drinking from the equation, the question “Do I trust myself?” would not exist anymore. It would simply be a matter of not really knowing but at the same time being satisfied with the outcome. I am taking that route people! What a way to really test my perseverance by going to no other than Sin City: Las Vegas.

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I got a call from a buddy asking a big favor if I could come with him to Vegas because a friend visiting from Florida wanted to see the city before his flight to PI. I wanted to actually go because mom has been winning in “Keno,” a game I’ve never played before, the last two times she’s been there. Anyhow let me try to summarize how the trip went: Long drive, hot weather, crappy hotel (I should have done the reservation!!! But no.), won in Roulette, lost in Black Jack, hot weather, lunch and dinner buffet, saw some shows, lotsa walking around, missed the pirates show (again!), hot weather, outlet shopping, resisted invitations to a club, strip club, a hotel room by a random stranger, resisted drinking alcohol as well, and did I mention, really really hot weather! I guess I passed the test! Haha. But I know there will be tons of offers in the weeks to come.

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I’m going to California Polytechnic State University Pomona! I went for the orientation last week and got the chance to meet some prospective Chemical Engineering students. When the moderator asked all the Chemical Engineering students to stand up, I was hoping I wasn’t the only one. Thank heavens there were five of us: Sakura, Vinh, Rocio, David, and myself. I went there yesterday to submit my final transcript as well as to request my Chemistry classes from UP Diliman be credited for my support courses. I have yet to visit the Physics and Math Department.

I’m just excited for the Fall semester. I can’t wait!

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I saw Transformers and Ratatouille a couple of days ago. They were good flicks. Ratatouille was a feel good movie but it’s still not as great as Finding Nemo. My friend thinks I shouldn’t compare the two and I think he’s right to a ceratin extent. However, if I were to choose which among the two I like better. No doubt it’s Finding Nemo. Having said that, this shouldn’t take anything from Ratatouille as well. I had a great time last Sunday sans the mishap of losing an Ipod I bought for my cousin. Now, I have to buy another one. Bummer!

Now, the Transformers. Ok people, y’all have to chill. I’ve been hearing a lot of reviews about it and most of you guys are so impressed. Really impressed. So the effects were great and there were funny segments but other than that, the whole movie is good. Again, I said good. Not great, not fantastic, no over-the-top description here. I wonder if I’m hard to impress or people are just too easily amused over the comeback.

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Will you ever let me in? Will you?

Should have.. Would have.. Could have.. and the perennial line “If only..” But you’re right. It’s better this way.