Complexities of a prince\’s life…

My home was the place I’ve always wanted to flee. I never really saw myself spending the rest of my life there. Now that I’m an ocean away from that place, all I could think of is the moment that I’ll be there once more.

They say that dreams are manifestations of what we unconsciously desire. It’s funny because ever since I’ve been here, I’ve been dreaming of how my coming back to the Philippines would be like.

During the last season of Sex and the City, Carrie finally went to Paris, the place where she always wanted to be. But later on, she would come to realize how New York will always be the place that she’d want to spend the rest of her life.

As of the moment, I see myself trying to make it here in Los Angeles. But my desire to travel to places would not end here. As for now, this strange city has welcomed me and I am more than happy to explore the hidden jewels this city has to offer.

I miss the Philippines and there’s no doubt about it. But I do know for a fact that when I go back there, it would just be for a few days or weeks only. I guess it’s just hard to let go of a place that has been your home for the last 20 years of your life. But sometimes, you just have to be strong enough to take the leap.

L.A. is now my new home and slowly, this strange city is becoming no stranger no more.

I miss you.. And the thought of not being able to touch you, to hug you, to just be with you, makes it harder.

I have no regrets. Absolutely none. It’s just that it’s hard sometimes when you become oblivious to everything around you. When you find yourself with nothing else to do but think of that one special person in your life; what she’s thinking, what she’s been up to.

The music playing in the background [thanks to my nieghbor] isn’t helping that much either. But who ever told me it was gonna be easy?

There are just things we have to be brave for. Or esle, everything around you succumb to whatever fear you’re experiencing. I keep telling myself to be brave, to let my guards down. The thing is, I need to stop and belive in myself. I am brave. I am brave because of you…

Who would have thought?

So far, the best day of my life. 🙂